Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Trials only make us stronger!

I know I should have put this up a long time ago but we have been out of town with no internet at all. I thought we would be able to get it at some point during our long trip but we were never able to.
I want to thank all for the wonderful congrats on our little one but I also need to tell you on June 23rd I was having some complications and went in for another ultrasound and we found that there was no heartbeat. I should have been between ten and eleven weeks but was only still at six weeks and one day just like in the first ultrasound. So my pregnancy had not been progressing since then.  I am thankful to have been able to see the little heartbeat and I am so privileged to have been so close to this little spirit even if for only a short while. I am excited to one day meet this sweet spirit that was so needed on the other side. I send my love out to those who have helped and talked me through this and those who have been through it themselves. It was harder than I thought it would be. The hardest part was to tell the kids. We took them out to ice cream and told them. Valencia surprised me, she said "Mom Heavenly Father has a plan and we will have another baby when he is ready. " Vincent was very sad and still asks me if there is a baby in my tummy yet almost daily, he tells me how he really wants a baby brother or sister. Sometimes it makes me laugh because of his innocence and other times it hits me and I really want one too. I am so thankful for the strong faith of my children and the strength they give me when mine is down. We have to be thankful for our trials, they make us stronger.

13 comments:

Kris said...

So sad to hear your news. Hope you all feel much better soon. Losing a baby is hard. Best wishes to all!

Jeannetta said...

Oh bless you. I am so sorry to hear. Having been there, I can tell you it DOES get better; in the meantime, I'm sending hugs and prayers.
<3

Mamas said...

So sorry to hear this! Will be praying for you...

Ritsumei said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! I just clicked through from Jeannetta's blog this afternoon. She's right, it does get better.

Stephani said...

Kristin, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I really hope you're feeling well, and I'm so grateful for the faith you share throughout your blog, your words always inspire me and make me want to be better.
I had 3 miscarriages throughout my pregnancies, with the most recent last May a few months before I got pregnant with Braden. I just share that to express that my heart aches with you, I know us moms love each tiny baby from the second we realize we're expecting them.
Love ya, would still love to get together, maybe an evening would be good? I don't get much visiting in when I have all my munchkins with me, my eyes are too busy darting in 2000 directions. But it'd sure be fun to do a girls' night, maybe with Melissa? Let me know if that sounds like something that'd work.
~Hugs~

Anonymous said...

Our God knows about and cares for you so greatly...He will provide strength and peace through all of your heartaches...I love you Krissy and care deeply as well...I will be praying for you...Loves, Auntie Dee

Anonymous said...

You have some sweet children who are close to the spirit. It's hard losing a baby, but it's nice to have the gospel in our lives to provide us with the knowledge that we will get to see these precious spirits again someday. Your little one must have had a bigger purpose. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. Take it from me, I believe faith, prayer, and scripture study is what pulled me through my loss more than anything. I hope you will be continually blessed with comfort and peace and know that I'm here if you need me. Cell#998-0040

*HUGS*

:) Tiff

Kristin B. said...

You all are too wonderful! I think I know all of the best people in the world. I have more support and love than I ever even knew. I have learned so much from this experience and even though it is hard I feel my Saviors love for me even more. It has helped me to grow closer to him. Hugs to everyone. You all make me smile!

Christy Ivory said...

So sorry to hear this Kristin. I didn't know anything about it. I am so sorry for your loss. This can't be an easy thing to go through. So sorry...

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing with me when you were able to come and visit. I am so blessed to have you, your strength, your sprit, and your wonderful example as a mother as my sister. I too and blessed. Valencia is right. Her faith is because of YOU (and Clint).
Aimee

Christy Ivory said...

Kristin,
You are so talented!! I didn't know where to leave you a comment about your photography website....It's amazing!! Wow. You are good.
It was so great to see you the other day. We need to get together and do a girl thing. Let's talk pictures...See you soon.

joanna said...

Hey Kristen, Clint, and kids, I am so sorry to hear your news. We have been there too. It took me what felt like a long time to feel better, but it did happen. Allow yourself that time. Our love to you all.

Spring said...

Kristen, I had no idea. I just saw you last week at the park. I am so sorry. I guess I should keep up better on reading my friends blogs!